endurance

how long can I endure the chirping of crickets outside my window day and night?
LoL. now I see cool words and phrases everywhere (creative writing)
chirping of crickets
anywho, I don't think saying anything to Nathaniel is going to solve anything.
"hey I liked you last year and thought you cared. but now you just think you're a tough guy and don't care anymore."
it can't change the fact that we won't end up with each other. he has a girl friend I'm melting over Ninja. or the fact that he already left me behind. he can't walk back to me
like I did with Squall, I'm going to say he left too. he's gone. both of them never existed.
hey it worked with Squall. I still talk about him but he holds nothing over me. I'm free of him and it feels sooo good
I hate that Nathaniel holds power over me. I flinch in pain everytime I see him or say or think of things he'd say and do.
but he's gone. so I should enjoy the memories I made up ^_^
that's a sad lie, but perhaps it can save me...................