busy

wow too much is going on. had a wonderful day with Ninja!

Love Who You Love

LoL I am seriously worrying about something that is like, 180 days away
'sides, I have plenty of time to be friends with Ninja. I should not worry.
everything always works out for the best
anywho. went on my first roller coaster in a long time. I survived
I tensed up though, which I bet it would be nicer if I didn't
perhaps my class will go and Ninja will go on with me ;)

yawn

soooo tired -.-
but it's odd. we have to build a house in applied engineering (a small one) and I'm like my journal could live in it ^_^
and Ninja said "we could make a little bed for it :)"
not sarcastically or bored or eyerollingly. almost like he appreciates that I'm attached to it and he likes it 2. and I have never met someone like that.
I worry about a couple of things:
1. when I go away....how will I survive?
2. if we don't end up liking each other, I will always compare guys to Ninja. which is not fair to them or me
3. what if we do and have a nasty break up cuz we're too alike
4. what if he grows up? *faints*
but I think I can survive. because Ninja helped me through the summer. he didn't have to be with me. I just thought, Ninja likes me for who I am. the world is stupid. and I survived
maybe I won't have to compare guys to him. it is asking alot to find another person like him. but there are like 6 gazilion people in the world.
and even though I feel like were meant to be, it may not be a good idea. perhaps I need to find my opposite (ah not Squall!!!)
and even if he grows up, I believe he has given me enough memories to last a lifetime.
it helps to know there is someone in the world like you. even if you never see him again

*grins* let's run around like airplanes

wow I am soooo happy about school
I got all the classes I wanted
religion, spanish, history, calculus, lunch, concert band, creative writing, and applied engineering
I have lunch with Ninja on day A (Leah too, but she seems to be okay with Ninja and me being bbfs)
see him alot
and Squall. but he's nicer since I learned I made him up. odd
told Ninja I was happy. he smiled at me.
for some reason, I remember being with him in the hall. we ran around and pretended to be airplanes. and it was fun
though Nathaniel did not sit with me in calculus, I do not feel too bad because I knew he grew up already. so it was not a shock
I feel bad that he can't be a part of my happiness. but *sigh* I can't make him.
it's just odd that Squall is........

first day down

ah well today was not so bad.
met some new kids. hung with my friends and Ninja and Leah (well Idk if she was happy about me being there with him but.....)
Squall does not exist. and I am free of him. wow it feels good
Jak was well, Jak. he was like the band will fail
played soccer with Ninja, talked to Ninja, stood close to him, and had fun.
I do not want to break up him and Leah but if he likes me then....I won't stop him cuz I want him to be happy (and I'd be really happy with him)
she was mad at him for not remembering her b-day. and something about him always saying I don't know what I want to do. oh, and probably for him having fun with me.
*sigh*
then LILY asked Ninja if he was dating Leah. he said Idk
I was so upset I told Nathaniel. he listened, but seemed confused and worried that I was going to tell him what my problem is with him
ah school...........
I get my schedule tomorrow.

aw que lastima

I love Fetch! but yeah Senator Ted Kennedy died today (yesterday?)

he was on Fetch! so I thought he was cool. and he seemed like a good person.

talked to Sally today. she is better which is good

tomorrow is the beginning of the end of my stay at my school.

I love it there and don't wanna go. but I have to, so I will make the most of it.

and not lose myself over the future.......

ah ^_^

only 2 days left of freedom. but I am excited cuz I love to learn and I wanna see everyone again.
off to practice my flute

hey, remember who you are

after thinking and doing a pros and cons list (and on that list crossing out Squall and Ninja and Jimmy and Ray) I realized I should be taking applied engineering.
you only get one chance, and either way I'm losing.
but I think I'll learn more, be happier, and lose less in applied engineering
and I'll teach myself chemistry
Mr. Pepper wasn't happy, but he was understanding
Mr. Dragon was like it's your decision.
so yeah. the office lady was like come on the 1st day of school to change it

band was okay I guess
Lily does not know why we are here. she's like I'm here for the football games cuz I hear they are the best part. and she doesn't think the quest for prefection is fun.
class went well.
and that's that. oh Ninja was worried about me taking chemistry ^_^ he is sooo good

Steelers versus Redskins

so the Steelers lost against the Redskins. here's my take:
1.) Logan is a great punt return man. now we can actually have good field postition.
2.) Hines was great in that one handed catch.
3.) the line is not any better than last year

argh! I am looking forward to seeing Squall. bad bad bad!!
oh, and was reading my journal and found some interesting things. like the fact that Ninja called me Queen Quincy. wow. and all this other stuff. and all the times Nathaniel took my calculator and my eraser and my pencil. I'll miss hanging out with him and Pong.

wowsa I'ma texting Ninja. he really wants me to switch back to engineering . and I feel like I should.....

yummy garden food

I love garden produce :)

the 100th post

wow. it hasn't been 100 days, but I have posted 100 times ^_^

yesterday, I couldn't find Jimmy and it was raining, so not the best day. but Samuel was texting me.

over these 100 posts I've learned that the world is not the place I knew. it's not like I grew up, but rather someone popped my little bubble world and woke me up from a dream.

it's not like the world is bad per se, but that it is not as good as I thought.

I learned that there are people out there like me (Ninja, Lily, Zaira.....and maybe Nathaniel, Jimmy, Ray, Pong....) who saw the world like me. and still do, I hope

I say the world is what we make it. we can change the world.

we make little ripples in the world. we touch a life, and they touch others because of us. and soon it spreads........

we don't have to be famous to change the world

that's what I learned

a chance to pass it on.....

the pow-wow was to dish out responsibility

and I am the new marching helper. I have huge dreams about how to get those kids to learn how to march

I wanna pass on what Mr. Jazz taught us. how we are the best. how you stare up at those judges. how missing your dot is okay as long as you look good getting there and don't cheat

which none of these rookies know. they don't know it's wrong to face your dot and stare at the ground and make your dot.

marching band is not easy. if it is for you, either you're a super human or you're doing something wrong. it is usually the latter.

LoL

excited for tonight =)

and for school. I'm ready to learn a ton.

band pow-wow

oooo thanks randomclipart.com =)
ah watching Spongebob. watched Ben beat Shaq last night
we're having some sort of meeting at band tonight. I like calling them pow-wows.
we better be competing or else!!!!
and wow can't wait for the festival.

Picking a Freshman

so I went to school today to help get ready for the incoming freshman.
here's what occured:
-> Apple Jack talked to a girl, but stared at me oddly
-> talked to Penny and Fairy. sadly, I told Fairy about Lily seeing a text from Samuel. hopefully, she won't ask Lily about cuz Fairy'll flip if she found out that Samuel and I were almost more than friends
-> Jimmy, Ray, and Bob came to talk to me!!!!! Jimmy asked if I was going to a festival which he is performing at. wowsa! I said I would try to go
-> Jak said hi to me! (always weirds me out)
-> Squall was not present. which is good

excited cuz my 100th post is coming up soon

Near Squall

went over to Lily's today after band and swam in her pool. was nice.

at band, this guy came and worked with us. he knew what he was doing ^_^

(Lily lives near Squall. but we didn't see him. he is probably at soccer camp)

Bandslam

wow. I was shocked at how good Bandslam was. it was funny, yet deep and real.
I loved Bug cuz he wears argyle with his shorts
the music was awesome
I loved the trumpet, trombone, and sax players who started high stepping cuz they're from the marching band LoL (personally, I don't high step. not what we learned and too much work)
so if you're looking for a great movie, go see it!

argh! I be bored

should enjoy it while it lasts since school starts soon.

Steelers vs. Cardinals (game 1 of preseason)

yes my friends the Steelers won the first game of the season
(doesn't count of course ^_^)
for my comments on it I say
1. the officials are just as bad as last year, if not worse
2. Limas Sweed looked great!
3. our second-line defense needs improvement
4. I can actually watch when we punt! (last year I cringed. go Dan!)
everything else seemed normal
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I wish Ninja would get back to me, but he probably doesn't know to check his email
and Nathaniel....I better just keep my problem to myself cuz Lily will tell him if I tell her.
summer is almost over....Idk if that's good or bad

International Left-handers Day and the wait is over!!

wow. yesterday was good. Lily and I had sooo much fun marching.

and the rookies copy me =0 like, I never had that before.

they always complement my posture and trying to keep my shoulders around. which is hard with a flute, for me. but at attention with no instrument is so easy for me.

Mr. Jazz taught us well. I feel that I should pass it on. but I didn't realize I didn't have to do anything to pass it on, you know?

Nathaniel knows that I have some problem with him. he knew before I got there.

I don't know what my problem is though

well, maybe I do. I bet it's cuz I like him and he doesn't like me like that. but maybe even more it's that my friendship was not enough to save him from himself. I didn't have a good enough influence on him.

one guy one time came up to me and said that I make him want to do his homework. now he doesn't do it all the time, but wow.

it's odd being a role model now. when I'm so young and don't know much.

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today is international left-handers day. I am a lefty and proud of it. though most of the time I do things backwards cuz of it, and the world is not made for us, I wouldn't wanna be right handed.

and yes *screech* the Steeler game is today!!!!

who dey? who dey? who dey who dey we dey!!!

life is so good, even when bad things happen. happiness is stringing together the little moments

cuz little things (like finding pennies and saving them) add up.

and life is precious. I saw a bumper sticker yesterday that had a baby, a bald eagle, a sea lion, and a whale. the top read "which is not protected?"

think about how sick that is. all the animals are protected cuz they're endangered. but the unborn child is not.

the story of the cold-welded quarter

once, I suppose, my cold-welded quarter looked like that. but not anymore. here's its story:

setting: a school room. the black top tables are fixed to the beige tile.

Pong, his brown eyes shining, comes over to Quincy "Squall cold-welded a quarter to the floor!"

later........

a strawberry blonde girl and a strawberry blonde boy stare down at the quarter

"I will pick it up" Quincy says

"it's impossible." they turn and face Squall. Quincy scowls at him

Ninja says "of course we can Quincy" she smiles

later still........(yesterday, in fact)

Jak was holding the quarter in his hand. Quincy holds out hers, and he lets it fall. the quarter is chipped and scratched, and has some tile stuck to its back......

yesterday was not so great. I had to give up applied engineering because chem 2 was at the same time. seeing Mr. Pepper though was great.

Nathaniel was not as bad as I thought. his girl friend is really nice 2. but something about him isn't right.

wow Dally got a job.

the parade went well.

*sigh* the cold-welded quarter stands for what is apparently impossible, but isn't.

it is a powerful message I think

Country Girl

yummy ^_^ "but I couldn't help but fall in love so hard for my dry county girl" RF of course
today's the day ahhhhhh I'll blog about it later.
but have decided to be Sora for halloween cuz I made a keyblade out of cardboard *nods*

Everything I know I learned from Dr. Seuss

okay well maybe not everything, but if you just look at his works, he was a genius.
argh Lily told Cola that I'm mad at Nathaniel. which I am not
also, he dyed his hair red and green. oh I don't know how to control myself.
Cola will also not come to the parade if some of our friends bring their boyfriends. wouldn't she wanna bring hers if she had one?
Hailey and I seem to get along well. not super, but we always have something to chat about.
bots tomorrow!!
why do things have to be so complicated?

peace

I feel strangely peaceful about Nathaniel now.......
my mom says he probably needs friends right now, and she's right.
plus I remember how everyone was mad at him over his lip, and I wasn't. he complained that they were going out of their way to make him feel guilty, and I bet he was glad to have someone who doesn't yell at him
so I'll be there if he still wants to stack markers ;-)

in other news today is the Hall of Fame game. it is only the Bills versus the Titans, but I am starved for football so I suppose I'll watch it. I also want to find out if the Titans are cursed from sneezing in the Terrible Towel. the Bengals, to my knowledge, have been cursed since 2005.
LoL. the Steelers are the bestest

*sigh*

"and I wouldn't change a thing. I'd walk right back through the rain. back to every broken heart on the day that it was breakin. and I'd relive all the years, and be grateful for the tears I've cried with every stumbled step that led to you. and got me here."-RF

wow I'd sing that all the time as I walked to study hall, knowing that Nathaniel, Pong, and I would have the most fun ever. whether we were studying, doing homework, or building towers with markers, we'd always end up laughing until we cried.

Not many people I know still act like kids. I'd say Ninja, Nathaniel, Pong, Jimmy, Ray, Lily, and Mr. Pepper are the main ones. oh and Zaira 2 =)

I like to think we live in our own little world where those who have grown up just can't fit in. they see us laughing, honestly laughing about something only we know, and they are too uptight to join in. like Jak, for example, yells at me and Ninja everytime we giggle at something.

but today is a sad day, for it seems that Nathaniel has left our realm.

he cut and dyed his hair, and got a tatoo.

I'm really not happy about his hair, cuz he had the nicest hair.

he just grew up and joined the tough guys, and I'm left wondering if he'd laugh at the same things. if he still likes putting waffles in Lily's locker or stacking markers

we were supposed to take calculus together. we'd help eachother through it.
we both had big dreams. but I bet he doesn't care anymore

I used to think, what if one day Ninja stopped dreaming and liking lemons and ketchup

if he grew up and left me behind.......

I wouldn't know what to do. I figured that it wouldn't happen. it couldn't

I guess I never questioned Nathaniel. I thought he'd stay the same

but I guess I was wrong. and it was a painful mistake

I know, he might be the same....but for some reason I doubt it.

when he pierced his lip that time, he told me he thought of me and sanitized the pin super well

if he still thought of me, why would he do this?

and Lily, of course, cannot seem to figure out that I liked him. (the old him)

when tuesday comes and I see him, will I be able to control myself? I hope so.

but I probably won't. I'll probably have to walk away........

Pirate Friday

awww Nathaniel has me soo worried

Ben and Troy Thursday

one week

Wednesday

when we went to a competition and heard how much the 50/50 was worth someone asked 'who wants a pony?'
LoL today is in honor of that.
Keri Smith is sooo awesome I love her blog today (it's called the wish jar)
called Nathaniel. but he was at kennywood
exhausted. told Hailey about the bots meeting
the end

Rascal Flattin' Tuesday

wow I cannot find a picture to describe what I'm feeling.
when I step on that field (even if it's just a parking lot) I glare up at the judges in the press box and think ha just try to find something wrong with me. you can't!
Mr. Jazz taught us to be confident. these poor new kids don't get that because they haven't taught it. I'll have to say something.
we listened to my ipod at dinner. no one booed my country music
and Hailey (not Haili) heard about Ninja. ooo she had better not tease me or grrr
LoL

Battlebottin' Monday

yes I came up with my own themes for band camp ;-)

Apple Jack was a jerk to Hailey and Lili (not Haili and Lily)

twas not bad. we learned 14 drill sets, but they are already having us march and play, which I don't agree with

Mr. Squall told me that Squall will be gone next week. Jak's all like but I thought tuesday was bad for you. LoL

I want to text Samuel. no idea why. am also jealous that Penny might have a boyfriend before me.

well ttyt

band camp

no we don't gamble!! we use them sometimes to mark our drill spots

wonder how band camp will be.... at least we aren't going away.

and Ninja didn't text me back!! I wonder why....oh I might have to call him ^_^

Unstoppable

wow there sure are alot of birds in our yard today.

I'm excited about a couple of things:

1.) Jak replied to my email. I have to talk to Dally and Ninja. I'll get their answers and tell Jak that Squall hasn't replied *nods*

2.) yay the Steelers are at training camp!!!!!

3.) I finished coloring my picture of Unstoppable by (you guessed it) Rascal Flatts oh how I love them!!! and they are coming here !!!!!!! when Idk. I probably won't be able to see them live, oh well