Dice and Tears

I bet people think I'm a cry baby

but hold that thought

do you know Louis Sachar?

he wrote Holes, Small Steps, Sideways Stories From Wayside School, um.... ect.

well he also wrote Someday Angeline

it's about this poor girl whose only supposed to be in third grade but she's so smart she's in 6th

(Squall!!!)

anyway, everyone sees the end result in the book, but Angeline sees the way the end result came to be

now back to my point

I'll admit I cry about stupid things

but

people who say I'm a cry baby only see the last straw as it were

I also think it has to do will chemicals or negative energy maybe?

I live on good, shiny, happy stuff

but in every light, there is darkness

so I burn the good, but the bad builds up

and it has to come out, so I cry

but this particular crying spell path started at the amusement park

cuz none of the cousins went on my rides with me

well okay I suppose I can handle that, cuz I don't go on theirs

anyway, I am sleep deprived

the little kids stole my swing, car, and horse ect

then we went to a water park

I burned my poor feet raw on the boardwalk

and they all went on a water slide without me. so I spent like a half hour in the kiddie pool

though that was kinda fun with Journal

anyway I spent the rest of the day laying around with my Aunt

I mean that's cool and everything

and then the resturant

none of the food was any good. and I was starving and cold

what took the cake (LoL) was literally the cake

cuz I wanted chocolate, and if not, then vinilla ice cream

and by the time they figured that out, the ice cream was gone

so that's when I cried

but no one thought oh she had a bad day

they all thought I was upset over cake

plus everyone was comforting me and someone gave up their cake so I cried even more

and I cried cuz it was stupid to be crying

and when I got home I couldn't take a shower and I was running out of everything left and right

and cuz my iPod wouldn't stay plugged in

I still have not caught up on sleep
and I'm still upset

I don't wanna have to explain why I'm crying to people who honestly don't get me anyway

I miss my friends soo bad

cuz I mean, family is related by blood

but friends stick together cuz they want to

I love my family, but I wanna hear Lily say "Quincy!" all huffy and then offer to beat up the paper towel dispenser or Nathaniel pout at me or me and Penny share suffering stories

even Squall

cuz I've complained to him a couple times and he just like says don't worry

I reeeeaaaallly wanna see him today

and everyone else in bots

but Mr. Pepper won't be there *sigh*

I think I'll cook up some scribbled iggs and toast and tea

and take a llllooooonnngggg shower

but first, I said hi to someone I haven't talked to in years

it was so easy

saying hi to Squall is hard